“You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view... Until you climb inside of his skin and walk around in it.”
― Harper Lee, To Kill A Mockingbird
― Harper Lee, To Kill A Mockingbird
When someone does you wrong, it hurts. When someone betrays you, it hurts. When the people that are suppose to be close to you betray you, you're shattered. It cuts you deeper than the Grand Canyon. It leaves you asking questions and picking up pieces. You're upset, you're mad, but mostly you're hurt.
Often times when people have hurt me in the past I just let it go and move on with my life. I've always just smiled and forgiven them. It's always been mostly easy. Except...except for two people. For months and years (in both cases) I prayed to God to give me the strength to forgive them. I always knew that forgiving them helped me and not them. It does me no good being upset or to harp on the past. It only hurts me. For a while, I always thought I had forgiven them. I hadn't. I was lying to myself. I was lying to myself so I wouldn't have to face the pain, so I wouldn't have to think about the past, so I could forget about it all. I always dreamed about the day I would forgive them. I always thought I would feel a weight lifted off of me and I could just smile on. I could see it, I could imagine it, I could feel it. That wasn't the feeling. On March 30 at 11:19 it happened. I forgave them. This huge wave of power and strength came over me. I knew it was time. I cried - I still am crying. I felt sick to my stomach and still do. I'm shaking. It's scary. I am scared. BUT I am ready. I forgive them with my whole heart and every fiber in me. This is a new feeling. A new journey awaits me. I'm anxious. I'm nervous but excited. Ephesians 4:32 says, "And be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving one another, just as God also forgave you in Christ." I can forgive them because He forgives me. I forgive you _____ and _____ . Thank you. XOXO, A Gearle who forgives
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